evil heart

Posted: October 31st, 2012 | No Comments »

had dream last night about being stalked and looked up the dream interpretation —  “to dream that you are being stalked indicates some difficulty or issues which you are not confronting.” OH HELL YES, as yesterday had very annoying (tense) day with coworker who is very nice, has good heart, but essentially my polar opposite, very prim, very  proper, very ambitious, a bit smug, and she was coordinating our office move, which i found disorganized and was a bit face grouchy about it (sorry, face is transparent) (ok, truthfully, i was probably being a bit smug, as i’m pretty good at organizing events [brag] and didn’t feel like this office move was up to snuff, though she had just been in a car accident last week, should’ve cut her some slack, but see title of this post, evil heart, no slack will ever be cut), plus we had to haul our own filing cabinets, etc., but then the new office wasn’t even ready, but we had already started moving, per her instructions, annoyed face, and after a couple hours of tension between us, we’re in the new office, she was like,  “well, nicki’s desk is always very messy, i remember one time she had toilet paper on her desk for two weeks” and i felt a blaze of dizzy anger but tried to be causal, “hey! not true! actually that was not my desk, that was rosa’s, ha ha ha” but inside my heart was swelling with permanent black hate.

hence the nightmare regarding stalking and unsolved (petty) problems.

which are truly not solved yet.

as i still very hateful towards her, work, working, being alive.

WHAT DO YOU DO WHEN YOU DON’T LIKE SOMEONE
HOW DO YOU FIND THE PEACE IN YOUR HEART



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