Posted: August 23rd, 2026 | Tags:Uncategorized | No Comments »renting the godfather coda, which we ended up watching the next night
birthday came and went, i’m 52 now!!! celebrated by taking the day off, eating pizza and salad, eating cake for breakfast (ordered off goldbelly in a panic but no regrets, would do again), and watching my “canon movie i’ve never seen” — paper moon (good) and bonus second: the french connection (not my fave? but you could see why it was a big deal). birthday movies thus far:
paris, texas
chungking express
hoosiers
mad max
the conversation
paper moon
i’m v pleased about this list and this tradition and my other unspoken tradition: TAKING THE DAY OFF. watching movies, eating cake, not working — some define this as heaven (me do). anyhow nothing revelatory to report — feel lucky for all that i have, days can still be tough, headaches plague me, but overall it’s all p lucky, both zoomed in and zoomed out. now watching moonstruck — a perfect movie, as i’ve mentioned (besides the 25 seconds of lifetime movie montage where cher is drinking wine in front of a fire) — which made me wonder which oscars moonstruck won (best actress/cher, best supporting actress/olympia dukakis, and best original screenplay/john patrick shanley) (all extremely deserved). led me to watching cher’s oscar speech and she’s awesome and meryl streep is also so awesome. maybe broadcast news should be my movie next year? ok off to fold laundry.
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Posted: July 8th, 2026 | Tags:Uncategorized | Comments Off on things i’m worrying about at 4am
do people with kids think that people without kids are less than, in their heart of hearts? if you asked, i’m sure they would say “Oh no, no way” but in their hearts — do they? i think some do!!!
why is the back of my eye hurting these past few weeks, should i get it checked out, if so who do i see? and where do i go?
how do i find an amazing or at least decent PCP (in Austin?)
how do i manage everything at work gracefully while we’re short staffed
linda and her doctor visit
why is work so much harder this summer/year? [a: more activities, more high stakes grants, less staff?]
how do you do a job for a long time and NOT grow, but be ok with that? like how do you stay still and still be excellent? seems like an oxymoron but help me see that it’s not.
related: how do you go up to a certain level and then go back down to something more sustainable
fact: managing contractors [construction and otherwise] is hell
storytime
when can i take a vacation longer than 2 days
what do we do with the dogs if we want to go away, who can we hire, does it even work, will teddy go insane and poop all over the house
why is some poetry so UGH
aging
aging gracefully
dementia, please don’t let me have it and if i do, please take me to a state where i can end my life humanely
the universe, the meaning of life, what’s it all about, how do we keep moving forward amidst it all, NBD
we started watching the sheep detectives last night and it was honestly just what my stressed brain needed (though we had to stop 41 minutes in because i was falling asleep). gotta work on my sleep again. teddy has been taking up a LOT of room on the bed and it’s not easy. i feel for him because that’s how he lived his life for 10 years and he moves here and he has to sleep on the ground, i don’t think so? but also maybe i think so. ok off to do baby pilates.
“Just like that, I’m water. Just like that, I’m the boat. Just like that, I’m both things in the whole world rocking. Sometimes sadness is just what comes between the dancing. And bam!, my mother’s dead and, bam!, my brother’s children are laughing.”
“last night I saw my son’s adult self & in the same moment toddler self this really happened he was playing “Wish You Were Here” by Pink Floyd on his electric guitar & feeling it”
