{"id":10030,"date":"2015-10-09T01:08:34","date_gmt":"2015-10-09T01:08:34","guid":{"rendered":"http:\/\/bookbinderlocal455.com\/blog\/?p=10030"},"modified":"2015-10-13T16:45:18","modified_gmt":"2015-10-13T16:45:18","slug":"on-tantrums-matt-sweeney-being-motherfucked","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/bookbinderlocal455.com\/blog\/2015\/10\/09\/on-tantrums-matt-sweeney-being-motherfucked\/","title":{"rendered":"on tantrums, matt sweeney, being motherfucked"},"content":{"rendered":"<p>just listened to the <a href=\"http:\/\/www.wtfpod.com\/podcast\/episodes\/episode_637_-_matt_sweeney\" target=\"_blank\">WTF interview with matt sweeney<\/a>, highly recommend, matt played here last year with bonnie prince billy and he was hella charismatic. which i think comes through in the interview. i love how he talks about being on tour in new zealand and trying to get money from the atm and having -$25 in his account and realizing he was &#8220;motherfucked.&#8221; best term of 2015. so cheerful but also so explicit.<\/p>\n<p>in other news, i had a huge tantrum last night, HUGE, hugest ever, with ross, poor ross, and it was exactly that moment that <a href=\"http:\/\/bookbinderlocal455.com\/blog\/2015\/10\/06\/tantrums\/\" target=\"_blank\">saipua<\/a> refers to, <em>am i actually going to do this<\/em>, and even as you are thinking it, you are tipping over the edge and rolling down the mountain and being crushed to death [by your own undignified emotions]. anyway. so yes, was a big one. stormed out into the rain, even. [then had to meekly walk back soaking wet after 30 seconds.] cool. will calmness ever come to me. i think it had to with my arrival back in marfa, which tends to make me resentful, coupled with my open-ended future, relationship questions, dumb mammogram results, connie&#8217;s dad, etc. etc. i feel like ross can&#8217;t actually believe we are still talking about these things, they are so clear to him in his head, but i&#8217;m a freak and need constant affirmation and truthfully i am maybe motherfucked when it comes to self-esteem, relationships, learning in general.<\/p>\n<p>BUT GUESS WHAT!!!!<\/p>\n<p>i&#8217;m a godmother!!!!!<\/p>\n<p>to levi merriman wu!!!!!!<\/p>\n<p>do tantrum throwers deserve to be godparents? hell no but who can stop me. levi, prepare to be showered with presents, cool songs, squeezes, white sweatsuits.<\/p>\n<p>UNRELATED GOOD SONG<\/p>\n<p><iframe loading=\"lazy\" src=\"https:\/\/www.youtube.com\/embed\/uwP3NTkwwwc\" width=\"560\" height=\"315\" frameborder=\"0\" allowfullscreen=\"allowfullscreen\"><\/iframe><\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"<p>just listened to the WTF interview with matt sweeney, highly recommend, matt played here last year with bonnie prince billy and he was hella charismatic. which i think comes through in the interview. i love how he talks about being on tour in new zealand and trying to get money from the atm and having [&hellip;]<\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":1,"featured_media":0,"comment_status":"open","ping_status":"open","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"_s2mail":"yes","footnotes":""},"categories":[1],"tags":[],"class_list":["post-10030","post","type-post","status-publish","format-standard","hentry","category-uncategorized"],"_links":{"self":[{"href":"https:\/\/bookbinderlocal455.com\/blog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/10030","targetHints":{"allow":["GET"]}}],"collection":[{"href":"https:\/\/bookbinderlocal455.com\/blog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"https:\/\/bookbinderlocal455.com\/blog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/bookbinderlocal455.com\/blog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/users\/1"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/bookbinderlocal455.com\/blog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/comments?post=10030"}],"version-history":[{"count":20,"href":"https:\/\/bookbinderlocal455.com\/blog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/10030\/revisions"}],"predecessor-version":[{"id":10051,"href":"https:\/\/bookbinderlocal455.com\/blog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/10030\/revisions\/10051"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"https:\/\/bookbinderlocal455.com\/blog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/media?parent=10030"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/bookbinderlocal455.com\/blog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/categories?post=10030"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/bookbinderlocal455.com\/blog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/tags?post=10030"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}