{"id":10451,"date":"2015-12-14T14:33:08","date_gmt":"2015-12-14T14:33:08","guid":{"rendered":"http:\/\/bookbinderlocal455.com\/blog\/?p=10451"},"modified":"2015-12-15T14:31:16","modified_gmt":"2015-12-15T14:31:16","slug":"goodbye-2015-i-wont-miss-you","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/bookbinderlocal455.com\/blog\/2015\/12\/14\/goodbye-2015-i-wont-miss-you\/","title":{"rendered":"GOODBYE 2015 I WON&#8217;T MISS YOU"},"content":{"rendered":"<p><iframe loading=\"lazy\" src=\"https:\/\/www.youtube.com\/embed\/qq09UkPRdFY\" width=\"420\" height=\"315\" frameborder=\"0\" allowfullscreen=\"allowfullscreen\"><\/iframe><\/p>\n<p>i know i&#8217;m early on this but i am ready to kick 2015 to the damn CURB. it wasn&#8217;t terrible and i&#8217;m blessed and\u00a0 able to enjoy daily joys and i&#8217;m listening to <a href=\"http:\/\/8tracks.com\/marcelines\/backyard-boogie\" target=\"_blank\">this<\/a> right now, but overall, 2015 was a rocky road. hysterectomy jammed the whole thing, like a weird year of stupid grieving, like truly, STUPID grieving, as i was on the fence about having kids ANYWAY, but there&#8217;s something about not having a choice that just stings. also going back to work after having worked so hard to quit, and being tentatively hopeful about the new scenario, but still feeling like a piece of charred wood &#8212; just was bad all the way around. having to press up against the knowledge that i was too burnt felt like a stubbornness on my part, which made me feel worse, so burnt PLUS guilty PLUS hopeless, let&#8217;s be honest, a bad combination. there were good things that came out of the extra work year (meeting laura and sarah; switching ballroom&#8217;s site to shopify!!!! i&#8217;m still thrilled about this, because i am a deep true nerd; the incredible steve earle playing for ballroom; taking mike simonetti to the el paso airport airport; health insurance), but you know, when you are burnt, you are burnt, and that may be the end of the story (maybe it&#8217;s not the end of the story for some but for me it was). but i&#8217;m ready for a new era. mariah, take me out please.<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"<p>i know i&#8217;m early on this but i am ready to kick 2015 to the damn CURB. it wasn&#8217;t terrible and i&#8217;m blessed and\u00a0 able to enjoy daily joys and i&#8217;m listening to this right now, but overall, 2015 was a rocky road. hysterectomy jammed the whole thing, like a weird year of stupid grieving, [&hellip;]<\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":1,"featured_media":0,"comment_status":"open","ping_status":"open","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"_s2mail":"yes","footnotes":""},"categories":[1],"tags":[],"class_list":["post-10451","post","type-post","status-publish","format-standard","hentry","category-uncategorized"],"_links":{"self":[{"href":"https:\/\/bookbinderlocal455.com\/blog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/10451","targetHints":{"allow":["GET"]}}],"collection":[{"href":"https:\/\/bookbinderlocal455.com\/blog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"https:\/\/bookbinderlocal455.com\/blog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/bookbinderlocal455.com\/blog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/users\/1"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/bookbinderlocal455.com\/blog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/comments?post=10451"}],"version-history":[{"count":3,"href":"https:\/\/bookbinderlocal455.com\/blog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/10451\/revisions"}],"predecessor-version":[{"id":10455,"href":"https:\/\/bookbinderlocal455.com\/blog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/10451\/revisions\/10455"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"https:\/\/bookbinderlocal455.com\/blog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/media?parent=10451"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/bookbinderlocal455.com\/blog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/categories?post=10451"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/bookbinderlocal455.com\/blog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/tags?post=10451"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}