{"id":15552,"date":"2019-05-30T20:31:15","date_gmt":"2019-05-31T01:31:15","guid":{"rendered":"http:\/\/bookbinderlocal455.com\/blog\/?p=15552"},"modified":"2019-05-30T23:57:10","modified_gmt":"2019-05-31T04:57:10","slug":"nostalgiaagony","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/bookbinderlocal455.com\/blog\/2019\/05\/30\/nostalgiaagony\/","title":{"rendered":"nostalgia\/agony"},"content":{"rendered":"<div id=\"attachment_15553\" style=\"width: 260px\" class=\"wp-caption aligncenter\"><img loading=\"lazy\" decoding=\"async\" aria-describedby=\"caption-attachment-15553\" class=\"wp-image-15553\" src=\"http:\/\/bookbinderlocal455.com\/blog\/wp-content\/uploads\/2019\/05\/IMG_2845-692x1024.jpg\" alt=\"the coolest\" width=\"250\" height=\"370\" srcset=\"https:\/\/bookbinderlocal455.com\/blog\/wp-content\/uploads\/2019\/05\/IMG_2845-692x1024.jpg 692w, https:\/\/bookbinderlocal455.com\/blog\/wp-content\/uploads\/2019\/05\/IMG_2845-203x300.jpg 203w, https:\/\/bookbinderlocal455.com\/blog\/wp-content\/uploads\/2019\/05\/IMG_2845-768x1136.jpg 768w, https:\/\/bookbinderlocal455.com\/blog\/wp-content\/uploads\/2019\/05\/IMG_2845-1039x1536.jpg 1039w, https:\/\/bookbinderlocal455.com\/blog\/wp-content\/uploads\/2019\/05\/IMG_2845.jpg 1063w\" sizes=\"auto, (max-width: 250px) 100vw, 250px\" \/><p id=\"caption-attachment-15553\" class=\"wp-caption-text\">me, 1988, 14 years old, braces, vest, fluffy hair, mad style<\/p><\/div>\n<p>john dug up some old home videos of us from college and high school and oh it was intense viewing. good memories, but also kind of traumatizing. i&#8217;d kind of built up my own mythology about those days &#8212; &#8220;i was square but happy,&#8221; &#8220;nerdy but <em>actually<\/em> cool&#8221; &#8212; which is&#8230;eh&#8230;true, but also doesn&#8217;t account for all the searching, awkwardness, trying to figure out who to be, HOW to be, during the ages of 12-23. i had the most amazing friends, but i was such a late bloomer, and basically you could see all that melodramatic seeking in the videos. was painful to witness; i was so relieved to be past it. to have figured it out (relatively) (still struggle with a different kind of seeking) (though i&#8217;m trying to frame my searching as curiosity) (life is not about flatlining, right?). the moral of the story is that some kids get out of adolescence easy; some DO NOT. (or does anyone really get out easy? maybe it&#8217;s all a question of hard or harder or hardest.)<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"<p>john dug up some old home videos of us from college and high school and oh it was intense viewing. good memories, but also kind of traumatizing. i&#8217;d kind of built up my own mythology about those days &#8212; &#8220;i was square but happy,&#8221; &#8220;nerdy but actually cool&#8221; &#8212; which is&#8230;eh&#8230;true, but also doesn&#8217;t account [&hellip;]<\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":1,"featured_media":0,"comment_status":"open","ping_status":"open","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"_s2mail":"yes","footnotes":""},"categories":[1],"tags":[],"class_list":["post-15552","post","type-post","status-publish","format-standard","hentry","category-uncategorized"],"_links":{"self":[{"href":"https:\/\/bookbinderlocal455.com\/blog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/15552","targetHints":{"allow":["GET"]}}],"collection":[{"href":"https:\/\/bookbinderlocal455.com\/blog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"https:\/\/bookbinderlocal455.com\/blog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/bookbinderlocal455.com\/blog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/users\/1"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/bookbinderlocal455.com\/blog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/comments?post=15552"}],"version-history":[{"count":9,"href":"https:\/\/bookbinderlocal455.com\/blog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/15552\/revisions"}],"predecessor-version":[{"id":15586,"href":"https:\/\/bookbinderlocal455.com\/blog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/15552\/revisions\/15586"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"https:\/\/bookbinderlocal455.com\/blog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/media?parent=15552"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/bookbinderlocal455.com\/blog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/categories?post=15552"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/bookbinderlocal455.com\/blog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/tags?post=15552"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}