{"id":17810,"date":"2021-05-18T22:16:52","date_gmt":"2021-05-19T03:16:52","guid":{"rendered":"https:\/\/bookbinderlocal455.com\/blog\/?p=17810"},"modified":"2021-05-18T22:19:11","modified_gmt":"2021-05-19T03:19:11","slug":"if-im-just-me","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/bookbinderlocal455.com\/blog\/2021\/05\/18\/if-im-just-me\/","title":{"rendered":"if i&#8217;m just me"},"content":{"rendered":"\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">have always found chef <a href=\"https:\/\/bookbinderlocal455.com\/blog\/2017\/07\/16\/what-a-qt\/\">natasha pickowicz<\/a> so <a href=\"https:\/\/bookbinderlocal455.com\/blog\/2019\/12\/06\/we-have-all-had-curvy-paths\/\">charming<\/a> and all her COVID baking projects so dope and<a href=\"https:\/\/www.grubstreet.com\/2021\/05\/encounter-natasha-pickowicz.html\"> this interview with her<\/a> about getting laid off during COVID reminded me of <a href=\"https:\/\/bookbinderlocal455.com\/blog\/2018\/04\/13\/a-lot-of-feels-this-week\/\">my own experience post-marfa-myths<\/a>:<\/p>\n\n\n\n<figure class=\"wp-block-pullquote\"><blockquote><p>Eventually, through ever-grimmer mass emails, she learned that she\u2019d been furloughed and, in June, permanently terminated. \u201cMy first thought was not of liberation or of freedom,\u201d she tells me over Zoom some days after the event at Yellow Rose. \u201cIt was terror. It was a feeling of, \u2018I\u2019m a nobody.\u2019 Part of the toxicity of fine-dining structures is that I felt like I was nothing unless I was attached to somebody with credibility. I felt scared to pursue things on my own, like people were only interested in what I was doing because I was affiliated with trendy restaurants. If I\u2019m just me, I\u2019ve lost any clout or resources.\u201d<\/p><\/blockquote><\/figure>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"<p>have always found chef natasha pickowicz so charming and all her COVID baking projects so dope and this interview with her about getting laid off during COVID reminded me of my own experience post-marfa-myths: Eventually, through ever-grimmer mass emails, she learned that she\u2019d been furloughed and, in June, permanently terminated. \u201cMy first thought was not [&hellip;]<\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":1,"featured_media":0,"comment_status":"open","ping_status":"open","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"_s2mail":"yes","footnotes":""},"categories":[1],"tags":[],"class_list":["post-17810","post","type-post","status-publish","format-standard","hentry","category-uncategorized"],"_links":{"self":[{"href":"https:\/\/bookbinderlocal455.com\/blog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/17810","targetHints":{"allow":["GET"]}}],"collection":[{"href":"https:\/\/bookbinderlocal455.com\/blog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"https:\/\/bookbinderlocal455.com\/blog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/bookbinderlocal455.com\/blog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/users\/1"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/bookbinderlocal455.com\/blog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/comments?post=17810"}],"version-history":[{"count":3,"href":"https:\/\/bookbinderlocal455.com\/blog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/17810\/revisions"}],"predecessor-version":[{"id":17821,"href":"https:\/\/bookbinderlocal455.com\/blog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/17810\/revisions\/17821"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"https:\/\/bookbinderlocal455.com\/blog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/media?parent=17810"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/bookbinderlocal455.com\/blog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/categories?post=17810"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/bookbinderlocal455.com\/blog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/tags?post=17810"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}