{"id":18323,"date":"2022-04-30T12:02:03","date_gmt":"2022-04-30T17:02:03","guid":{"rendered":"https:\/\/bookbinderlocal455.com\/blog\/?p=18323"},"modified":"2022-04-30T14:44:50","modified_gmt":"2022-04-30T19:44:50","slug":"sinkhole","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/bookbinderlocal455.com\/blog\/2022\/04\/30\/sinkhole\/","title":{"rendered":"sinkhole"},"content":{"rendered":"\n<figure class=\"wp-block-image size-large is-resized\"><a href=\"https:\/\/bookbinderlocal455.com\/blog\/wp-content\/uploads\/2022\/04\/Screen-Shot-2022-04-30-at-12.44.55-PM.png\"><img loading=\"lazy\" decoding=\"async\" src=\"https:\/\/bookbinderlocal455.com\/blog\/wp-content\/uploads\/2022\/04\/Screen-Shot-2022-04-30-at-12.44.55-PM-802x1024.png\" alt=\"meme saying &quot;you raggedy bitch&quot; that i screenshotted from somewhere\" class=\"wp-image-18328\" width=\"401\" height=\"512\" srcset=\"https:\/\/bookbinderlocal455.com\/blog\/wp-content\/uploads\/2022\/04\/Screen-Shot-2022-04-30-at-12.44.55-PM-802x1024.png 802w, https:\/\/bookbinderlocal455.com\/blog\/wp-content\/uploads\/2022\/04\/Screen-Shot-2022-04-30-at-12.44.55-PM-235x300.png 235w, https:\/\/bookbinderlocal455.com\/blog\/wp-content\/uploads\/2022\/04\/Screen-Shot-2022-04-30-at-12.44.55-PM-768x981.png 768w, https:\/\/bookbinderlocal455.com\/blog\/wp-content\/uploads\/2022\/04\/Screen-Shot-2022-04-30-at-12.44.55-PM.png 1060w\" sizes=\"auto, (max-width: 401px) 100vw, 401px\" \/><\/a><\/figure>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">guys went to the amazing texas library association conference and i was surprised by how unmoored i felt about the whole experience &#8212; i almost started crying checking in. which was so weird and embarrassing. i mean, yes, it was all new and foreign, but still&#8230;when did i grow so insecure and unsure? and relatedly: why am i so quick to diminish my accomplishments?<em> <\/em>it&#8217;s the legit opposite of how you&#8217;re supposed to be in the world at age 107. i think about how i moved to marfa and didn&#8217;t know anyone and just rolled with it and just somehow i&#8217;ve lost that spirit. is it being in marfa? was it ballroom? was it the long road through grad school and having to really humble myself to make a living? is it being so removed from my support system and just losing my way? WHY DON&#8217;T I WANT TO BE SEEN? anyway. it was a wonderful experience but lonely and unsettling and i was honestly glad to be back in marfa. <\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"<p>guys went to the amazing texas library association conference and i was surprised by how unmoored i felt about the whole experience &#8212; i almost started crying checking in. which was so weird and embarrassing. i mean, yes, it was all new and foreign, but still&#8230;when did i grow so insecure and unsure? and relatedly: [&hellip;]<\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":1,"featured_media":0,"comment_status":"open","ping_status":"open","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"_s2mail":"yes","footnotes":""},"categories":[1],"tags":[],"class_list":["post-18323","post","type-post","status-publish","format-standard","hentry","category-uncategorized"],"_links":{"self":[{"href":"https:\/\/bookbinderlocal455.com\/blog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/18323","targetHints":{"allow":["GET"]}}],"collection":[{"href":"https:\/\/bookbinderlocal455.com\/blog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"https:\/\/bookbinderlocal455.com\/blog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/bookbinderlocal455.com\/blog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/users\/1"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/bookbinderlocal455.com\/blog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/comments?post=18323"}],"version-history":[{"count":5,"href":"https:\/\/bookbinderlocal455.com\/blog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/18323\/revisions"}],"predecessor-version":[{"id":18331,"href":"https:\/\/bookbinderlocal455.com\/blog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/18323\/revisions\/18331"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"https:\/\/bookbinderlocal455.com\/blog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/media?parent=18323"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/bookbinderlocal455.com\/blog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/categories?post=18323"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/bookbinderlocal455.com\/blog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/tags?post=18323"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}