{"id":20250,"date":"2025-12-09T10:45:26","date_gmt":"2025-12-09T16:45:26","guid":{"rendered":"https:\/\/bookbinderlocal455.com\/blog\/?p=20250"},"modified":"2025-12-09T20:24:30","modified_gmt":"2025-12-10T02:24:30","slug":"related-to-this-two-fold","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/bookbinderlocal455.com\/blog\/2025\/12\/09\/related-to-this-two-fold\/","title":{"rendered":"related to this (twofold)"},"content":{"rendered":"\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">from <a href=\"https:\/\/open.substack.com\/pub\/mirandajuly\/p\/dealing?r=f7j3&amp;utm_medium=ios\">Miranda July\u2019s newsletter<\/a> (can\u2019t 100% endorse but also it does speak to me):<\/p>\n\n\n\n<figure class=\"wp-block-image size-large\"><a href=\"https:\/\/bookbinderlocal455.com\/blog\/wp-content\/uploads\/2025\/12\/IMG_1362.jpeg\"><img loading=\"lazy\" decoding=\"async\" width=\"730\" height=\"1024\" src=\"https:\/\/bookbinderlocal455.com\/blog\/wp-content\/uploads\/2025\/12\/IMG_1362-730x1024.jpeg\" alt=\"\" class=\"wp-image-20251\" srcset=\"https:\/\/bookbinderlocal455.com\/blog\/wp-content\/uploads\/2025\/12\/IMG_1362-730x1024.jpeg 730w, https:\/\/bookbinderlocal455.com\/blog\/wp-content\/uploads\/2025\/12\/IMG_1362-214x300.jpeg 214w, https:\/\/bookbinderlocal455.com\/blog\/wp-content\/uploads\/2025\/12\/IMG_1362-768x1078.jpeg 768w, https:\/\/bookbinderlocal455.com\/blog\/wp-content\/uploads\/2025\/12\/IMG_1362-1094x1536.jpeg 1094w, https:\/\/bookbinderlocal455.com\/blog\/wp-content\/uploads\/2025\/12\/IMG_1362.jpeg 1170w\" sizes=\"auto, (max-width: 730px) 100vw, 730px\" \/><\/a><\/figure>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">***************<br>I\u2019m always trying to ESCAPE, tempted by freedom and no rules and maybe even more importantly \u2014 no expectations? this is fading as I get older but just \u2014 the idea of having no commitments \/ responsibilities \/ stakes in the ground is alluring (but also the opposite, too, of what I want!). I feel so bad for ross because I was completely fritzed these past three years with my mom and was only seeking rest and comfort when I wasn\u2019t caretaking and now am trying to repair and get back into my body and my brain and find out how to live again? because I still 99% want to rest. but he\u2019s ready to <strong>GO<\/strong> and wondering, <em>hey that big burden is gone, can\u2019t we party\/go back to the old ways?<\/em> and i feel like I\u2019ve lost sight of \/ lost my understanding of how to live exactly.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<hr class=\"wp-block-separator has-alpha-channel-opacity\"\/>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">so anyyyyyyyway \u2014 but \u2014 I am alive!!!!<br><\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"<p>from Miranda July\u2019s newsletter (can\u2019t 100% endorse but also it does speak to me): ***************I\u2019m always trying to ESCAPE, tempted by freedom and no rules and maybe even more importantly \u2014 no expectations? this is fading as I get older but just \u2014 the idea of having no commitments \/ responsibilities \/ stakes in the [&hellip;]<\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":1,"featured_media":0,"comment_status":"open","ping_status":"open","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"_s2mail":"yes","footnotes":""},"categories":[],"tags":[1],"class_list":["post-20250","post","type-post","status-publish","format-standard","hentry","tag-uncategorized"],"_links":{"self":[{"href":"https:\/\/bookbinderlocal455.com\/blog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/20250","targetHints":{"allow":["GET"]}}],"collection":[{"href":"https:\/\/bookbinderlocal455.com\/blog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"https:\/\/bookbinderlocal455.com\/blog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/bookbinderlocal455.com\/blog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/users\/1"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/bookbinderlocal455.com\/blog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/comments?post=20250"}],"version-history":[{"count":13,"href":"https:\/\/bookbinderlocal455.com\/blog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/20250\/revisions"}],"predecessor-version":[{"id":20270,"href":"https:\/\/bookbinderlocal455.com\/blog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/20250\/revisions\/20270"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"https:\/\/bookbinderlocal455.com\/blog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/media?parent=20250"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/bookbinderlocal455.com\/blog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/categories?post=20250"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/bookbinderlocal455.com\/blog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/tags?post=20250"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}