related to this (twofold)

Posted: December 9th, 2025 | Tags: | Comments Off on related to this (twofold)

from Miranda July’s newsletter (can’t 100% endorse but also it does speak to me):

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I’m always trying to ESCAPE, tempted by freedom and no rules and maybe even more importantly — no expectations? this is fading as I get older but just — the idea of having no commitments / responsibilities / stakes in the ground is alluring (but also the opposite, too, of what I want!). I feel so bad for ross because I was completely fritzed these past three years with my mom and was only seeking rest and comfort when I wasn’t caretaking and now am trying to repair and get back into my body and my brain and find out how to live again? because I still 99% want to rest. but he’s ready to GO and wondering, hey that big burden is gone, can’t we party/go back to the old ways? and i feel like I’ve lost sight of / lost my understanding of how to live exactly.

so anyyyyyyyway — but — I am alive!!!!

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