rather much

not sure where i took this stress quiz but i think it about got to the heart of it

a bit of a mood

okay, tell me EVERYTHING

this was a good loves/hates list, especially 8-10.

it really does sound insane

i have been reading some JUNK sports writing lately, but i dug this tiny little bit from the athletic:

This was the [Anthony] Edwards we’ve been waiting to see in the clutch. Intentional. Calm. Cool. Collected (outside of fouling Luka on a 3-pointer while up six).

While he still works on convincing the refs to give him the star calls, he closed like the star player he is and the one he’s projected to become. Now, can they do it again in Game 5? Or better yet … avoid a clutch game altogether with a big win? Sounds insane. — Zach Harper, NBA staff writer

might have to try this

been so asea lately — looking for some grounding and joy-giving. might have to try #1 and #4 from questlove’s “what i’ve learned”:

made actual food!

three day weekends are awesome because i had the time to make actual food, including banana bread (not great, but not terrible — screwed up by using tofutti sour cream) (no disrespect to tofutti) but, more importantly, this awesome sheet pan pizza al taglio. first of all, i love sheet pans. second, this pizza made me feel like a star.

sad screenshot on my phone

my eternal question

rantin and ravin

AHHHHH WHY IS EVERYONE JUST SO CHALLENGING

a v boring update

it’s memorial day weekend, and saturday i stayed in bed all day, and it was TRULY AWESOME. i watched mad max 2, slept a bunch, watched basketball (a disappointing game, tbh, but right now they’re all disappointing?). sunday, however, was one of those sloth days, i washed my hair but otherwise got nothing done while at the same time dreading all i had to do. was resistant to doing things and yet stressed by not doing them. classique fun combo. at the end of the day, i went to ross’s performance, which was v cool, then i walked the dogs to vance’s, and he came over for ice cream, so ultimately a mellow win. but not terribly productive. today was my DOING THINGS day and so far yes — did all my work i had to do (revise a flyer, draft and send an email, catch up on emails); write back to assisted living folks; write back to moving helpers; order bedding for mom; send update to mom’s friends*; now i’m doing laundry and about to make banana bread, and we MIGHT go see furiosa in alpine (but weirdly not excited this minute? even though i am excited about seeing it, but maybe not TODAY). anyway my main dumb constant question is: IS life complicated? i think it’s complicated but also that may be why i struggle so much and have constant migraines. how do i just zen out and not absorb all this dumb BS.

ps. RIP sweet bill walton.

*doing this made me a little depressed, because the friends had texted this morning to say they miss mom, but they’ve “backed off trying to get together” to help mom settle in to her new place. i was like, 🤔 ok…but friends and support and love are exactly…what she needs? anyway, still had to send them an update about mom, with all kinds of caveats, “if you have the interest/stamina,” “again, only if you are up for it.” basically letting everyone off the hook, because i know everyone is trying their best and everyone has so much on their plate and we ALL need a little grace, but it still felt disappointing, like gulping down something sad.

we’re all trying