nostalgia

been having mad nostalgia today. i made a joke about marrying an old high school crush to courtney, and then i started looking at said old crush’s facebook profile and it sent me down a WEIRD ASS road. just remembering those old high school feelings but also feeling skeptical. but a FEELING skepticism. like getting my little teen self but also being like, man what the hell. then i looked at another old high school crush’s facebook profile (i had a lot of crushes in high school, whatever, i was a straight nerd who only understood how to do algebra II, eat rice krispie treats, read harlequin novels, and throw raging frustration tantrums.) anyway, just looking at these guys, it’s like, man, life is so weird. WHO ARE THESE GUYS NOW?! they look old! really they look old. but the same, too. that’s the part that is so nostalgic, and sad, how they look the same if you keep staring. but so different. but the same.