following up on that new year’s resolution

so far haven’t been all that good on my new year’s resolution (ughhhh) (like…this week after going to dallas and austin, when i got all wound up by work and couldn’t relax and enjoy jd’s going away party), BUT BUT BUT — i do need to tip a hat to two incredible things that i did in austin.

a long time ago i mentioned to john that i’d never seen amadeus, and he said he’d watch it with me anytime. then we joked about making it like an alamo screening with mozart wigs and viennese food and candles and etc. so i mailed him four amadeus wigs as a gag and just bookmarked the idea for some nebulous future.

but when i last minute decided to go to austin after yvonne’s funeral, we decided to watch amadeus and WE ACTUALLY DID THE WHOLE SHEBANG (subbing in ramen for viennese food) (good sub) (VEGAN RAMEN!) (cities are amazing).

and then the next morning i got to see chad and julie and their amazing kids and eat pancakes and drink coffee and be with them.

so maybe i am doing ok on the resolution front? though — my underlying goal was to unclench during stressful times…so — a mixed bag. but take a look at these wigs! i mean!

greatest discovery of 2023

just found out that joe strummer and i share a birthday

no conflicts have been resolved

felt this excerpt from hanif abdurraqib’s instagram about marvin gaye and his sad sad story.

pretty good sky

big mood for 2023

an oldie but a goodie

here me is

it’s january 4, i’m in bed, sick with some unknown malady (has morphed from cold into flu-like into jet lag?), watching the house voting for its speaker, which is my perfect kind of behind-the-scenes governmental drama. i’ve been sick for almost a week, missed basically all the holiday and new year’s celebrations, so it’s like it’s still 2022. my only resolution for this new year is more joy, because i seem to somehow persist on focusing on the stress rather than savoring all the delights. i mean, it’s confusing, because i do so enjoy the little things, but sometimes i just can’t enjoy myself all the way? it’s like i can’t unclench or something. so. that’s it this year: enjoy it all, if i can.

also when getting gatorade at dollar general, saw this INSANE display for ~fig apple~ red bull??? THE WINTER COLLECTION

my monthly blog check-in

i can’t exactly quit this blog but trust that i’ll be slow as hell about updating it. life continues apace. just finished the romance novel the dead romantics, which was honestly not that great, but i guess readable. it DID get me excited to finally read mick herron’s dead lions, which has been sitting on my bedside table for too time, so that’s something.

i’m trying to think of this year, what even happened? a foggy summary:

• took my end-of-program exams
• got a dope new slouchy couch
• my sweet sister got married!!!!
• on the way back from london, i missed my train from austin to marfa, which turned out to be a great blessing TBH
• made my only grad school B in the dumbest grad school class of all time and for WHAT
• the library blew up at the end of may (not literally) and it was hell but we got through it but WOW
• GRADUATED GRAD SCHOOL, THE MOST MIRACULOUS THING, it actually happened, i did it! it seems impossible even now
• ross left on two long trips and i straight up HATED it, does this make me co-dependent
• loved x infinity andor
• also loved severance, even though what will the second season bring?
• read a bunch of books, the best were station eleven and slow horses, but my mind is a sieve, there might have been other highlights?
• had a wonderful trip to el paso with courtney where we saw THREE movies (first theater visits since pre-covid) and stayed at a plush hotel and just basically blasted, oh it was heaven
• pretty much couldn’t get into white lotus — enlightened remains mike white’s great achievement, no further questions
• rediscovered my love for gary oldman AND michael keaton

ETC ETC MORE TO COME

the perfect sign for a cbd boutique

recognize me?

lifelong fan of lynda barry, this interview continues the devotion.