somewhere over pennsylvania

old photo from 2010

this speaks my language

Duraflame 3D Infrared Electric Fireplace Stove with Remote Control – Portable Indoor Space Heater – DFI-5010

 (inspired by “what writer leanne shapton can’t live without”)

kwame brathwaite

photo by kwame brathwaite, courtesy of new york mag

a photo series of good things

best pals who send you kind books to help with grief

best cousins who make you the coolest tees

dogs who rest their heads on your feet as you work (my legs look like man legs here, interesting)

this photo of me and clyde that carolyn sent tonight — we were luxuriating on the sheepskin rug she bought us for our wedding (me and ross’s, not me and clyde’s).

straight truth

i’m not in love with having pink eye

PINK EYE

this week i:

• stabbed my arm on a barbed wire fence (arm was like a very soft marshmallow)
• got a tetanus shot
• listened to 3.5 boring ass lectures (2.5 more to go), actually listening now to 0.5,  and mind is mad unpumped
• got pink eye!!!!

THE END

if we could only figure it out

from my dear pal chambo:

“To do this practice, we have to give up hope. When I say to give up hope, I don’t mean to give up effort. I mean that we have to give up this idea in our heads that somehow, if we could only figure it out, there’s some way to have this perfect life that is just right for us. Life is the way it is. And only when we begin to give up those maneuvers does life begin to be more satisfactory.”

–Joko Beck

no, I try to create a calming atmosphere

from jazmine hughes’s “you do you” interview:

On how she sleeps: Full of guilt and anxiety! No, I try to create a calming atmosphere. I take melatonin, sometimes I’ll do some palo santo, but mostly I’ll just put on an episode of The Office or 30 Rock that I’ve seen 700 times so my brain can be tricked into not thinking about everything. At night, my brain starts going in a zillion different directions, so if I give it something familiar that it’s seen consistently for the past ten years, that is a very easy way to get me to fall asleep. Honestly, I love Succession, but they all talk so fast and they’re all so white that it’s put me to sleep a lot of times.

new daily goal

just to keep the brita filter full

update: goal not being met

my favorite ways people described clyde on ross’s instagram

can’t really look at the post without crying, but i loved what people wrote, everything, but these made me feel like people really got him:

• “clyde you old hero you”
• “a true texan”
• “a true love bug”
• “RIP to a real one”