survival of the illest

yesterday i wrote a draft post about how even texting with
crush #2 sends me into a tizzy. about how if he calls or messages
me, i totally lose my concentration and have to sit there and
daydream for like, 10 minutes. and my heart starts pounding. and my
breathing gets kind of shallow. and my whole chest cavity gets
warm. we texted a lot yesterday, which basically prevented me from
getting ANY work done. brain was in cloud land for like, 7
hours.