feel weird

just got back from overnight trip to carlsbad for a pal’s birthday — went to the caverns, ate at chili’s, sat in a hot tub, drank a beer in the hot tub, took a cold pool dip, went bowling, went to walmart, watched the end of he’s just not that into you, and got a lot of donuts to bring back to marfa, since i’ve been watching twin peaks and all it does it make me want to have 50 donuts on hand at all times. it was, in theory, fun, the caverns were fun, the bowling was all right, the hot tub was awesome, but we did a lot of talking, about people, relationships, fidelity, marfa, etc. and it sort of left me feeling down. just…what is the way to share things with people, express discontent, and not have it become a shit-talking session? remember my evil heart, i have one, it’s true, and sometimes i want to process it, and help de-evilize it, but how do you do this without hurting invisible people’s feelings?

i came back feeling bad, not refreshed, like a heavy stone.

which somehow led me to accusing ross of sleeping with marfa’s one-legged soft-core-porn bartender (YES SHE EXISTS), cuz the bed “didn’t look slept in.”

greetings, i’m officially insane.

CONCLUSION: NO MORE LADY ROAD TRIPS TO CARLSBAD