rotten maggots and fiery volcanos

polly giving great advice again:

I wasted years and years trying to figure out how to be cooler and calmer and nicer and EVEN EASIER-GOING. I wasted two decades crying and feeling like a freak and knowing that I had a deep, dark secret: I was all sugar and spice on the outside and rotten maggots and fiery volcanoes on the inside.

THIS IS EXACTLY HOW I FEEL AND EXACTLY WHAT I THOUGHT THE SHAMAN WOULD SEE DURING MY READING (“your soul is evil”)

I’m a sensitive person. I don’t think I even understood that back then. I just thought I was deeply flawed.

YES I STILL SOMEWHAT THINK THIS ABOUT MYSELF