very annoying day

just have to say: DUMB DAY. why does it seem there are always super-urgent deadlines the day i’m leaving for vacation or the day after. or two days after. there’s never a time when it’s like, cool, chill on that vacation, don’t frantically check your email every second on the road to el paso and then once you land and then also throughout your trip. so like, that’s cool. also been thinking about this — just really do NOT want to operate in the workplace in a masculine way. i want to hold on to the ways in which — traditionally — stereotypically — women navigate and operate. keep the kindness, maybe lose the fragility, be confident. i guess i used to think i had to act like a man to make it all work, cuz shit was so bananas and i was always getting snapped at by dumb men, but i don’t think it’s better to lose the round edges. it’s worse to get hard. kindness always, i think. is this what lean in is all about?