what’s it all about

i mean, really, what is it all about. had a two-day, head-exploding headache, think it had to do with food (?) (maybe? like allergies to foods? like macadamia nuts? bad strawberries? probably nonsense) or maybe work-life exhaustion (return to library, tons to do, two arguments with mom, two days in a row, unclear how to handle her, feel like giving up), and just — just honestly wanting to retire. to watch ken burns documentaries and read sci fi. but instead i need to do laundry and go grocery shopping and recycle and plan this library party and plan the future and figure out my mom write a grant and etc etc. ZZZZZZZZZZZ BLAH BLAH BLAH WASTED PERSON WASTE OF SPACE