MESS STRAIGHT MESS

was soooooooooooooooooo blue and tender last night due to mom chaos and work and couldn’t wrangle myself to a better form so had sad argument with ross (argument not quite the right word — what’s fighting without fighting and/or one person [me] presenting silent wounded behavior?), which led to sleeplessness, which led to morning haggard appearance and general dismal outlook. tonight i have to rally and be in the homecoming parade and feel EXCITED and i also have to work this saturday at 8:30am and throw a sundae party at 3pm and be EXCITED and my heart is not in it. heart is tired. heart just wants to lie in bed. not even read or watch tv or read (times TWO). just literally lie in bed. also we have mice! very cool. sidenote: did you know that bobby fuller died mysteriously at age 23?! OK THERE ENDS ILLEGAL WORK BLOGGING