failing lol

today was a doozy. have never felt so threadbare. really gotta serenity now BIG TIME.

UPDATE: incredibly today was worse!!!! how can it be? every day getting texts, phone calls from mom’s caretakers, trying to keep up with her appointments, her blowing them off or showing up 30 minutes late, getting falling down drunk as soon as my uncle leaves. alcoholism — even on this low-key level (whatever low-key means) is just so bleak. going to my first al-anon meeting thursday (nervous)

UPDATE 2: did not go to the al-anon meeting :/