just lol

i waited so long to apply for a library job in austin because i thought i would instantly get it? i was smoking straight crack. i think i was like, i’m a shoo-in, and of course, that is not exactly the case. applied quickly (perhaps sloppily) and no word back. i am not taking it personally (heh) (i am) because it’s a huge city system and i’ve been out of the market for awhile and i don’t live there and i’m kind of general good (rather than focused) but…man, it’s been a good lesson AND a bit humbling and a good reminder that it will take awhile (forever?) to crack the system.