just signed up for this

i don’t know why i’m so 😵‍💫 these days — just 100% kaput. having a hard time finding the joy (besides in whipped cream) and it’s like, what is my g-d problem. fighting with ross, body hurting, headache always hovering, more impatient with everyone at work, general dread about everything (except days off), even though superficially it’s all great. i feel like it’s this weird PTSD with my mom from this past year and always being ready for an emergency. but like…that sounds sorta bogus and dumb and like get over it. but anyway, signed up for this level one course on somatics. please let me keep at it. please let me get better! and please still love me while i’m in this pit!