death etc lol

Posted: August 27th, 2025 | Tags: | Comments Off on death etc lol

read this article this morning — “a cancer patient chose assisted death. that wasn’t the last hard choice.” — and it made me cry for a lot of reasons. i’m obviously reflecting on mom’s last years and what could have improved them and how she ended her last days (palliative care/hospice was amazing and yet still she seemed to suffer). have been thinking so much about death and the afterlife and religion and the meaning of it all.

been talking to my therapist about it, and he seems to believe in reincarnation (maybe i do, too? i just can’t believe in nothingness), and asked what he thought my mom needed to learn from her struggles, and what *i* needed to learn from my experience with her. i don’t know. how important friends and family are? suzy suggested how important filling my cup is…but…is that my lesson?

one of the writer’s comments hit home, “I have seen, reporting this series, that just as you say, in the months and years after a difficult death many people start to question what a ‘regular’ death looks like in their community.” i’m scared that there is no “regular” (i.e., non-stressful?) death.

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