“If I could forget about music I would.”

i have thought about this article, “Redemption of a Lost Prodigy” by Alex Vadukul, since reading it. it’s about saul chandler, who was a child prodigy in violin, but gave it up. i can’t even find the exact part that gets me, but just the idea of losing oneself, starting over, letting go:

But when Mr. Chandler turned 16, the pressures of producing excellence consumed him, and he had a nervous breakdown that derailed his career. He estranged himself from classical music and in an act of reinvention legally changed his name. He would lead a circuitous life that has since involved running a seedy hotel in Times Square, a successful career in mathematics and dramatic voyages at sea. Thirty years ago he started building boats on City Island, where he found peace on its waters. “I don’t want to be remembered for who I was,” he said. “Because I ended up doing a lot of other great things in my life, too. People here know me for who I am now.”

there are times when

dorothea grossman, “i have to tell you,” via the poetry foundation

please go for a long walk!

this made me laugh, from “my week in new york” by Chris Mandle (can’t link to it inexplicably):

surprisingly moving dedication in the may 2021 edition of the US copyright law

(via the us government copyright law)

the little girl in blue

the drape of this! the colors!

no info on the designer, i screenshotted it months ago from stella bugbee, and meant to gush on it, but forgot and so here we are with zero information except that it’s a vibe. also somehow i heard about these spotify playlists by teatime and they’re pretty good but i think they’re made by dakota johnson?!??! not that that matters…but? i guess actors are people too!

an oldie but a goodie

(via jessica olien, via possumrule)

oriental express terrordome

seen through oriental express’s order window

bless this artist

a lot going on here — is it trying to scare us into not sleeping on our sides or is it saying we’re actually all already dead or is it seeing our true dead-eyed souls or is it just click bait style terror-fest????

i just work here

my mom sent me this article, “do you care too much about the job?” by rachel feintzeig, and the final part really made me laugh:

For Nate Holdren, a professor in Des Moines, Iowa, the challenges of pandemic work—trying to discern his students’ reactions during remote teaching, helping them navigate Covid-19 crises—left him questioning his own self-worth.

“It’s like, not only did that session not go well, but maybe I’m not good at this,” he says. “It’s really easy to keep going over and over and over it again.”

Recently, he bought a T-shirt and notepad to try to shift his outlook. In capital letters, both declare: “I just work here.”

I JUST WORK HERE