Ideate on that

loved this interview with sean combs, long been a fan of his vibration. so many good quotes, so much excellent attitude:

“When I started seeing how media was using our success, whether it was Kanye’s, Jay-Z’s, mine, Rihanna, LeBron. That’s just a couple of people, but if you market it right, you put the right type of propaganda out, you may have people get comfortable like there is inclusion,” he said. “No, there isn’t.”

He’d left the studio, stripped down to shorts and kinesiology tape on his right shoulder, and made his way to the private sauna in one of the other small buildings near the rear of his property. Inside, it was 149 degrees.

“Every day I wake up in the morning,” he said, “I pray that I ain’t gotta ask a white man for [expletive].”

To that end, he’s been working on an online platform for Black business and entrepreneurship, Empower Global, which he said was meant to be a corrective for “what they took away from us from Tulsa,” referring to the 1921 Tulsa Race Massacre in Oklahoma, in which the prosperous Greenwood neighborhood was burned by a murderous white mob. “It’s basically empowering myself with the pain of my ancestors and coming up with a solution, instead of having my heart turn to hatred,” he said.

“If I’m doing better, that don’t mean we doing better,” he continued. “I’m here for we.”

“Sean Combs Doesn’t Need to Ask Anyone for Anything” by Jon Caramanica

thanks

dreamboat

MESS STRAIGHT MESS

was soooooooooooooooooo blue and tender last night due to mom chaos and work and couldn’t wrangle myself to a better form so had sad argument with ross (argument not quite the right word — what’s fighting without fighting and/or one person [me] presenting silent wounded behavior?), which led to sleeplessness, which led to morning haggard appearance and general dismal outlook. tonight i have to rally and be in the homecoming parade and feel EXCITED and i also have to work this saturday at 8:30am and throw a sundae party at 3pm and be EXCITED and my heart is not in it. heart is tired. heart just wants to lie in bed. not even read or watch tv or read (times TWO). just literally lie in bed. also we have mice! very cool. sidenote: did you know that bobby fuller died mysteriously at age 23?! OK THERE ENDS ILLEGAL WORK BLOGGING

better than ever

“the basil” by kathryn cowles

etc

• rewatching only murders in the building and listen, it’s a VERY odd show and yet…still strangely comforting? who can explain it
• fell asleep twice while watching the new indiana jones BUT BUT BUT still enjoyed the parts i watched. my tastes are running towards comfort, almost exclusively
  
  THE REAL NEWS
  

without garlic

excellent comment from the (garlic-free) recipe for “pasta with fresh tomatoes and goat cheese”

have you ever seen such a thing

an actual growing cucumber, a miracle

mood

what’s it all about

i mean, really, what is it all about. had a two-day, head-exploding headache, think it had to do with food (?) (maybe? like allergies to foods? like macadamia nuts? bad strawberries? probably nonsense) or maybe work-life exhaustion (return to library, tons to do, two arguments with mom, two days in a row, unclear how to handle her, feel like giving up), and just — just honestly wanting to retire. to watch ken burns documentaries and read sci fi. but instead i need to do laundry and go grocery shopping and recycle and plan this library party and plan the future and figure out my mom write a grant and etc etc. ZZZZZZZZZZZ BLAH BLAH BLAH WASTED PERSON WASTE OF SPACE