these love/hate lists are p. good

courtesy of dreambabypress

vibing on this sentiment

but honestly if you know me i’m mostly happy in one room cozying up for life (plus a kitchen and a bathroom and ok maybe a sitting area) (but space…is not my desire)

really just grateful

FOR MY FRIENDS, FOREVER, AND FOR FRIENDS WHO HOST ME FOR SLEEPOVERS AT THEIR HOMES, EVEN THOUGH THERE ARE HOTELS (WHICH I ALSO LOVE) (BUT BEING COZY AT A BEST FRIEND’S HOUSE, THERE’S NOTHING LIKE IT)

peach tree blooming

it remains a miracle

three good things

• watching nyad on a whim and really enjoying it! recommend, highly!
• getting a true date night with ross last night — takeout thai food in alpine and watched unforgiven (i’d never seen it)
• my new migraine prescription?

the grind

oh man i am feeling the grind right now. just relentless grind, feeling so tired and so disappointed in people/the world/the news despite ryan gosling’s joyful “i’m just ken” performance and my new sweater. also our house is great but always a total wreck. frankie snapping at everyone. me maxing out with people. mom constantly sending sad texts. trying to find her a new place. trying to exercise / stretch / eat right / take vitamins / take care of skin. linda’s hemoglobin and platelet levels down. life is just a GRIND. how do you make peace with that. (haikus? opera?)

hate to say this but

i am vibing on daphne javitch’s instagram

our life’s work

watched all of us strangers last night, liked it, love andrew scott, but what i really liked was this quote from the ny times review of it:

“I’ve always felt like a stranger in my own family,” Harry tells Adam, and once I was able to stop intellectualizing “All of Us Strangers,” the line hit me like a ton of bricks. I think it’s a sentiment more common than most of us admit, even to ourselves, even when we are surrounded by people who love us. We are, we know, strangers in our families and in our lives and our cities and our own bodies, and our life’s work is to move from the strange to something approaching the familiar.

JUST WONDERFUL NONSENSE

a few good things

• basketball, of course
• some kinds of incense
• i’m sorry i’m an old person but jon stewart back on the daily show!!!
• ultimately i did like the fourth season of true detective QUITE a lot despite the extreme ethical violations

one bad thing:

• MY MUSTACHE